I’ve started reading a book that I can tell is going to turn me upside down.  It’s “Following Christ” by Joseph Stowell.   Stowell explores what it means to truly “follow” in that it is the unconditional pursuit of Christ, fully surrendering our will & lives to His control & leadership.  It parallels Luke 9:23 where Christ says that anyone who follows Him must deny himself & take up his cross.  Right now, I’m seeing this play out in my own life as I am in the midst of a career transition.  I’ve had lots of plans re: my career & God has detoured me multiple times and I now find myself looking for God’s direction once again.  The question is not only “what does God want me to do”, but am I willing to go there?  The easy answer is yes.  The reality is that getting to “yes” can be a real struggle, especially since God often asks us to give the answer before we know the destination.  Yet, who else would I follow?  Who else has the right & authority to direct my life?  For if it’s left up to me, it won’t be pretty.


Something more

There are days like today when I find myself being extremely challenged by Scripture.  Today it’s 2 Cor 4:16-18.  The essence is that there is more than what we see in this life and that is the basis of how we should live.  The same principle is echoed in Matt 6 where Christ teaches that His kingdom (that which is unseen) is more important than even our daily physical needs of food and clothing.   These are passages that I normally hear or read and think, “Wow!  That’s some great teaching,” but that I do a really bad job of actually living out.  Much of my time is focused on things like what kind of cell phone I want or on how much I think I should make at my next job.  God’s economy is much different than mine.  His priorities greatly different.  How do I live this life seeing “what is unseen”?  To be honest, I’m still figuring this one out.   I’m thankful that God has given us the Bible, His Spirit and that He is patient.  I want to better understand the reality He has called us to.  I want to live such that I’m concerned about things more than whether or not I have a cool phone.

Not always clear…

A life of faith sounds great when I read about it or when I see it in a movie like Lord of the Rings or Braveheart, when people risk everything for something bigger than themselves.  However, the reality of faith is difficult.  It requires perseverance and pushing forward when nothing in you feels like taking another step.  It means trusting God when we don’t have a clue as to what He’s doing or why He’s taking so long to do it.  My world has been turned upside down several times in the past year.  I still don’t know where God is leading me or my family.  But as Peter said, where else would we go, after all, Christ is the one who has the words of eternal life.  As much as I don’t understand what God is doing, the thought of not following His leading scares me more.